And Where is Baxley???: October 2008

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Life Changes

It's funny how life changes. I've always thought of life as changing little by little but have figured out that the big ones actually happen quite suddenly (even if not always unexpectedly). Like having a child. I was pregnant for almost 9 months but it was still quite a big change having a child. We had to learn (and are still learning) how to take care of him. His only means of communication is crying. It can be frustrating when you can't figure out which cry he's crying (hungry, tired, dirty diaper, bored, etc). He's supposed to stop crying when Mommy holds him, right? Wrong.

When he first came home, he was still "asleep". That is, he was still waking up to the world. Well, he's woken up a lot more now. He has a harder time feeding now because he sees things around him. It takes his attention. He can't seem to focus. It also seems to be interfering with his ability to go back to sleep after eating. Thus, he seems to be getting overtired from the day and won't sleep as well at night as he was. But, all in all, I can't complain. He really doesn't cry that much. It's just little spurts here and there.

Really, the biggest change is the fact that life cannot be planned. Peanut is King. He decides when we go for a walk, when we have dinner, when I go to bed, when I wake up. Of course, I get to hold the cutest, most wonderful little baby whenever he makes these decisions.

The reason I was thinking about life changing is that yesterday was our wedding anniversary. Although from the outside, our wedding didn't seem to be a life changing event (we already lived together in a house that we had bought together), the wedding cemented our lives together and set us on the course for having our little Peanut almost 3 years later. We went out for dinner last night while my sister was nice enough to watch him (and even feed him a bottle). While out, we talked about great restaurants we used to go to and other such "past" events. But, MTH received an email from his Mom with pictures of Peanut. It pulled us into the present and we were happy to be there.